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It exists. The small sins accumulated in this life, and all the sins of previous lives, from the aspect of method, immediately perform confession with the complete four powers. From the aspect of wisdom, it is to grasp the meaning of "stay upright and look correctly, this is the best confession." The act of abandoning the Dharma knowingly, and slandering the holy beings, because they were strictly cut off, I don't remember doing them. Therefore, the sin of disrespect is not very much, it is the source of non-existence. Because I didn't know it was the true Dharma, and I didn't know it was a holy being, the sins accumulated due to ignorance seem to be mostly of the kind of empty talk. Due to the fault of liking to talk and being careless, the sins accumulated by jokes and jests, etc., seem to come naturally a lot. Those are not from the bottom of my heart. Because there is no problem with the mind, it is necessary to say a little bit. In short, the category of small sins is small. Generally speaking, if someone like me says that I have not committed sins, have no faults and downfalls, then it seems to be lying and deceiving others, it is flowery words. Even so, by practicing the antidote, immediately reducing the burden, this is the third reason. Also, although I don't have arrogance and imbalance of the eight worldly concerns, and selfish and strong faith thoughts, but in general, it seems to be sleeping in those conceptual thoughts. However, here, many conceptual thoughts appear in this different way: I think I have not heard much Dharma, have not learned much. And others like this have heard a lot, have learned a lot, thinking like this and dying satisfied. Also, I think I have learned a lot of Dharma, but there is no one to ask, no opportunity to speak, thinking like this and not being satisfied. Also, even if I have learned the Dharma, there is no opportunity to practice, thinking like this and regretting. Also, others regret their own behavior. Some people think I have learned the Dharma, have done practice, have blessings, but have not benefited sentient beings. Also, some people think that now they are good practitioners, but they have not been seen, have not gathered disciples, have not gathered patrons, have not received offerings and respect, have not become famous and are dissatisfied. Some evil people think that they have not accumulated wealth, have not defeated enemies, have not taken care of relatives, sons and daughters-in-law and servants, etc., have not come forward and feel frustrated. Also, because I am afraid of becoming like that, so
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我没有变成这样，说我死了还不如这样。还有，我有财富却没有留下任何痕迹，没有建造三宝所依，没有供养僧众。说我没死的话，就必须要做某件事。以前只是执着贪恋，感到后悔。还有一些人，快乐的时候，就让时间在无关的事情中流逝。一旦面临死亡，就说这次不死的话，一定要做一些佛法，一定要修行，然后匆匆忙忙地行动。还有一些人，在临终时，似乎要离开亲人，似乎要离开亲戚，似乎要离开子孙后代。这些僧人会怎么样？这些财物谁会拿走？如果我不在了，这个和那个暂时会变成什么样？临终时还执着不舍。像这些等等，对死亡感到恐惧的各种念头很多。一些持有邪见的人，现在用眼睛看，用耳朵听，享受着欲望，却认为死后就没有了。说我现在不会死，这样不可能，那样不可能。同样，有些人说我这么年轻就要死了吗？没有享受，没有快乐就要死了吗？等等。对于无知愚昧的想法，怎么可能有衡量的标准呢？我们这些人，对于与世俗和佛法相关的好的、坏的、强大的、高尚的事物，并没有那么强烈的求知欲。所以，即使没有发生那些事情，也不会感到沮丧。然而，就我们自己而言，那些事情大多数都发生了，但只是发生了而已，甚至令人厌恶，所以内心并没有感到满足。也就是说，即使听了很多佛法，也学了很多，但还是会后悔，觉得自己好像什么都没听过，什么都没学过。听闻佛法的人，有时也会变得厌烦，情绪激动。长期以来，也讲了很多佛法，也按照自己的能力进行了修行，遇到了深刻的见解，做了没有后悔的行为，以佛法和物质帮助了很多人。如经中所说：“侍奉恶友会导致毁灭。”即使没有发生也可以的，不被重视和获得供养，名声也很大。对于已经发生的事情，既没有傲慢，也没有喜悦。我们自己勉强能够应付的，只有那些不太能干的学生和施主。
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I haven't become like this, saying it's better for me to die than this. Also, I have wealth but haven't left any traces, haven't built the three supports, haven't made offerings to the Sangha. Saying if I don't die, I must do something. Previously, I was just attached and greedy, feeling regret. And some people, when they are happy, let time pass in irrelevant things. Once facing death, they say if I don't die this time, I must do some Dharma, I must practice, and then act hastily. And some people, at the time of death, seem to be leaving relatives, seem to be leaving relatives, seem to be leaving descendants. What will happen to these monks? Who will take these possessions? If I am gone, what will this and that temporarily become? They are attached and unwilling to let go at the time of death. Like these and so on, there are many kinds of thoughts that fear death. Some who hold wrong views, now look with their eyes, listen with their ears, and enjoy desires, but think that there will be nothing after death. Saying I won't die now, that's impossible, that's impossible. Similarly, some say, do I have to die so young? Do I have to die without enjoying, without being happy? And so on. For ignorant and foolish thoughts, how can there be a standard of measurement? We people, for the good, bad, powerful, and noble things related to both worldly and Dharma, do not have such a strong desire to know. Therefore, even if those things don't happen, we don't feel frustrated. However, as for ourselves, most of those things have happened, but they have just happened, and even become disgusting, so the heart does not feel satisfied. That is to say, even if we have heard a lot of Dharma and learned a lot, we still regret it, feeling as if we have not heard or learned anything. Those who listen to the Dharma sometimes become bored and emotional. For a long time, we have also spoken a lot of Dharma, and also practiced according to our ability, encountered profound views, done actions without regret, and helped many people with Dharma and material things. As the sutra says, "Serving bad friends leads to destruction." Even if it is okay if it doesn't happen, not being valued and receiving offerings, the fame is also great. For the things that have happened, there is neither arrogance nor joy. The only students and patrons we can barely manage are those who are not very capable.
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也积攒了。对寺庙和僧众也做了供养。手印驻锡地也多了起来。也建造了很多三宝所依。现在没有剩下什么必须要做的事情了。想到食物、财富、受用、僧侣、施主等等，觉得这个需要那个需要，如果我死了会怎么样，这样一点也不需要为身后担忧，这是第四个理由。还有，有些有学识的人，不知道会转生到哪里，这很可怕。如果转生到恶趣怎么办？能不能转生到天界和人间可以修行的地方呢？这样反复思考。那也是真的，是真话。我很狡猾，也很聪明。但是，我虽然资质不好，但是根基好，所以敢于保证不会因为业和烦恼而堕入恶趣。而且，似乎稍微得到了一些好的祝愿。如经中所说：“往昔的习气，再次使广大智慧瑜伽得以完全掌握。”正如所说的那样，有信心越来越好，越来越好，这是第五个理由。我为了利他，看到痛苦的众生和无法引导到佛法中的顽劣之人，以前也没有满足，现在似乎还要在无尽的劫中继续追求无法实现的愿望。为了自利，没有什么不满足的，只是要经常保持内心的安乐。还有，如果问我是不是圆满的佛陀，就胜义谛来说，我是圆满的佛陀。其中也是法身。其他的，是不是佛，我怎么知道呢？我怎么知道呢？只要是吹牛，我喜欢大的，那样也很出名。如果问我是不是大乘圣者，也和那个差不多。那么是什么呢？现在不会有新的声闻缘觉圣者出现了。小乘凡夫那样的人，不合我的心意。看来我大概是虫子的朋友。因为必须说谎和装好人，所以说没有入道，结果什么也没得到。说自己是资粮道，结果也只得到一点点。实际上，像大乘资粮道那样，有无量功德，这些人是不懂的。那些自以为懂经的人，也都变得盲目了。大
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Also accumulated. Offerings were made to monasteries and the Sangha. Many handprint sites also became established. Many supports of the Three Jewels were also built. Now there is nothing left that needs to be done. Thinking of food, wealth, enjoyment, monks, patrons, etc., feeling that this is needed and that is needed, what will happen if I die, there is no need to worry about what will happen after death, this is the fourth reason. Also, some learned people, not knowing where they will be reborn, this is frightening. What to do if reborn in the lower realms? Can one be reborn in the realms of gods and humans where one can practice Dharma? Thinking back and forth like that. That is also true, it is the truth. I am cunning, and also clever. However, although my qualities are not good, my foundation is good, so I dare to guarantee that I will not fall into the lower realms due to karma and afflictions. Moreover, it seems that I have received some good wishes. As it is said in the scriptures: "Past habits, again make the vast wisdom yoga fully mastered." As it is said, there is confidence that it will get better and better, this is the fifth reason. For the sake of benefiting others, seeing suffering beings and stubborn people who cannot be guided to the Dharma, I have not been satisfied before, and now it seems that I will continue to pursue unattainable wishes in endless eons. For the sake of benefiting myself, there is nothing that is not satisfied, just to always maintain inner peace. Also, if you ask if I am a perfect Buddha, in terms of ultimate truth, I am a perfect Buddha. Among them, it is also the Dharmakaya. As for the others, whether I am a Buddha or not, how would I know? How would I know? As long as it is bragging, I like the big ones, and that is also very famous. If you ask if I am a Mahayana Bodhisattva, it is similar to that. Then what is it? Nowadays, no new Shravaka-Pratyekabuddha saints will appear. Such Hinayana ordinary beings do not suit my mind. It seems that I am probably a friend of insects. Because I have to lie and pretend to be good, so saying that I have not entered the path, I have not gained anything at all. Saying that I am on the path of accumulation, I have only gained a little bit. In reality, like the great Mahayana path of accumulation, there are infinite qualities, but these people do not understand that. Those who think they know the scriptures have also become blind. Great
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大瑜伽续部中出生，是从塔嘎来的，因为是虚伪的空话，所以这次放弃瑜伽行者的承诺。不用说里面是什么，因为那是吹牛，所以做什么都可以。总的来说，我是一个幻化的人，哪里有什么实在的？就像幻化的象，生和灭虽然显现，但在胜义谛中，生和灭是不存在的。是这样说的。扎西。（好像是在十五岁五十九岁的时候说的后面的章节。）
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Born in the Great Yoga Tantra lineage, I am from Taga. Because of false and empty words, I now renounce the vows of a yogi. There's no need to say what's inside, because that's just boasting, so it's okay to do whatever. In general, I am an illusory person, where is there anything real? Just like an illusory elephant, although birth and death appear, in the ultimate truth, birth and death do not exist. That's what is said. Tashi. (It seems that the following section was spoken when he was fifteen years and fifty-nine years old.)
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所作之事是，如燃灯佛等十一世。 隆钦巴和，达波扎西南嘉、杰波达瓦，扎嘎巴等，杰卓秋已述说，故此处不必说。 此外，转生为建造那烂陀寺的婆罗门德协达波。 将所有大乘经典著于文字。 称“导师三宝之仆”的那位，也说与我为一体。 在于阗，变成了名为阿奔提的国王。 有几年，以暴虐和罪恶的行为存在， 之后如与圣者普贤菩萨无别般行事，建造了五十座寺庙。 之后在印度，转生为名为小黑行者之人。 使黑行者之教法得以弘扬。 在此藏地，也说与国王萨南泽德，以及导师桑吉桑瓦的弟子瓦曼殊师利为同一血脉。 译师松秀赛瓦扎也是，在印度摩揭陀与导师阿伽亚嘎拉相遇。 清楚记得翻译《能仁之意庄严》等事。 在索度津的寺院附近， 变成名为郭汝洛丹的咒师， 依靠胜乐金刚（梵文：Śrīcakrasaṃvara， श्रीचक्रसंवर，śrīcakrasamvara，吉祥轮胜乐）、黑敌（藏文：དགྲ་ནག，梵文：Hevajra，हेवज्र，hevajra，黑汝迦）和《名号赞》三者，将众多人安置于成熟解脱之道。 虽然暂时名声不大，但实际上利生事业非常广大。 当时的地方等情形非常清楚。 承认与卓衮香擦巴尊珠扎巴，以及被称为成就者邬金巴的仁钦贝，还有嘉嘎贡等为同一血脉。 还有后来出现的纳塘堪布索巴华珠，那位格鲁派的格西，以及波东乔列南杰的上师朗哲巴洛桑巴，还有弟子波东热巴，以及嘉赛云曲瓦的弟子霍尔卡四人等为同一血脉。 觉沃杰的圆满瑜伽士弟子，也想是不是他。 与噶玛巴九世也是一体，故与邬塞让也是同一体性。 现在也是统治印度东西方的国王萨利姆巴， 因为众生没有福分，虽然未能使内道佛教兴盛，但将众多有情安置于安乐之中。 这卫藏之地