Chinese
无有。 疯狂无羁之态如此显现。 诸位格西具足正理者，以及志同道合之禅修大德，心中作何感想？敬禀。 德勒贝。
English
None. The appearance of unbridled madness manifested in this way. How do you, learned Geshes with logic, and great meditators of like mind, feel about this? Respectfully submitted. Gelek Pel.
Chinese
正在运送很多东西进来。我自己也从一个角落运送很多东西进来。朋友班禅巴·贝玛嘉措和贡巴·洛丹等当时的僧人们被抬着，绳子都断了。据说其他人都断了胳膊。仲·贡噶曲丹虽然掉下来了，但安然无恙地出来了。在顶楼，一位瑜伽士以黑汝嘎的形象为主持，聚集了五千多名在家出家男女瑜伽士，举行了会供轮。我自己在右边的主要位置上。之后，在马年年末和羊年年初等时候，在曲隆江孜出现了非常不好的梦兆。由于冰雹等一些原因，出现了如果那时在那里居住就无法生存的征兆，于是去了后藏地区。后来也把居住的中心放在后藏，原因就在于此。期间，曲隆兴衰的征兆也在那时显现出来，曲隆孜珠的各位人士，也有门卓瓦·丹夏等。关于谁来担任管家的问题，官府的仲·尼扎说要任命。朋友贝丁巴·云巴·杜度说要再次任命。现在即使任命了云巴，也会出现错误的决定，就像圆圆的石头一样。如果想要引起大的纠纷，就任命尼扎。一般来说，我根本没有参与讨论的意愿。如果问一次就听从的话还可以，但你们这些人没有大的能力。之后，虽然最初任命了尼扎，但之后从门卓那里，官仲任命了云巴·杜度等。现在自己所说的一切都很清楚。曲隆寺就像被宰杀的牲畜一样被享用，斯玛扎的名声不好，因为图丹·玛斯玛扎的过失，从那时起，期间汉族鬼怪的伎俩很大。那段时间我虽然非常贫穷，但那一年左右的学习却非常进步。在学习《俱舍论》和《律经》的时候，出现了佛陀身躯降下甘露，融入自己身体的景象。在学习《入菩萨行论》的时候，据说自己是静命论师。以及塔古拉的形象，一个非常美丽的年轻人，和两个妃子一起，各自拿着一把出鞘的宝剑邀请自己做客的景象。秋天在桑丁做度母的念诵时，出现了绿松石叶子。
English
They are bringing in many things. I myself am bringing in many things from a corner. Friends Palchok Gyatso and Zhungpa Tokden, etc., the monks of that time were carried, and the ropes broke. It is said that everyone else broke their arms. Drung Kunga Choden fell, but came out unharmed. On the top floor, a yogi in the form of Heruka presided over, and more than five thousand lay and ordained male and female yogis gathered and performed a Ganachakra. I myself was in the main position on the right side. After that, at the end of the Horse year and the beginning of the Sheep year, etc., very bad omens appeared in Cholung Jangtse. Due to hail and some other reasons, there were signs that one could not survive if one stayed there at that time, so I went to Tsangme (Upper Tsang) area. Later, the reason for making the center of residence in Tsangme was also this. In the meantime, the signs of the rise and fall of Cholung also became clear at that time, and there were various people of Cholung Tsedrup, such as Mon Drowa Tenzhal. Regarding the question of who should be appointed as the caretaker, the official Drung Nyendrak said to appoint. Friend Peldingpa Yunpa Dudul said to reappoint. Now, even if Yunpa is appointed, there will be wrong decisions, like a round stone. If you want to cause a big dispute, appoint Nyendrak. In general, I had no intention of participating in the discussion at all. If you listen after asking once, it's okay, but you people don't have great abilities. After that, although Nyendrak was appointed at first, later from Mon Dro, the official Drung appointed Yunpa Dudul, etc. Now everything I say is clear to everyone. Cholung Monastery is enjoyed like a slaughtered animal. Due to the fault of Tukdam Masmak Drakpa, Smar Drak's reputation is not good, and from that time on, the tricks of Chinese ghosts were great in the meantime. Although I was very poor during that time, my studies progressed very much that year. When studying the Abhidharmakosha and the Vinaya Sutra, there was a vision of rain of the Buddha's body falling and dissolving into oneself. When studying the Bodhisattvacharyavatara, it was said that I was Shantideva. And the appearance of Tagula, a very beautiful young man, with two consorts, each holding a drawn sword, inviting me as a guest. In autumn, when I did the Tara practice in Samding, turquoise leaves appeared.
Chinese
说是清净的刹土。显现出山岩、森林、流水全部都是翡翠颜色的景象。在扎西宗（བཀྲ་ཤིས་རྫོང་，不丹扎西岗宗）学习《入中论》的时候，梦中见到一位班智达，说是论师月称，身着三法衣，身体由火组成。受持《宝性论》的时候，在即将证得菩提的时候，梦见自己成了佛，名字是无垢莲花网光明。心想我将化身到各个刹土利益众生，于是变幻出许多和自己一样的化身，看自己的手掌，数法轮的轮辐，只有八百个。现在对上师的侍奉供养的福资还没有圆满。心想以菩萨化身的佛身利益众生，醒来后，其他关于慈氏五论的征兆都不记得了。学习《释量论》和《俱舍论》等的时候，或许是没有出现征兆，或许是出现了，但是现在没有回忆起来，总之什么征兆也没有。在娘堆达擦卡（ཉང་སྟོད་སྟག་ཚལ་མཁར་，娘堆达策城堡）的凯多（ཀྱཻ་རྡོར，时轮金刚）根本续传承中，经堪布仁波切开许，做了一次六加行的黑关，当时因为自己没有精进，所以没有做成精进颇瓦，但是在空色融合的觉受中，关于说是《时轮金刚》续的经函，连书架和证据一起，和曼隆（མན་ལུང་）后面的山顶一样高。我一登上那个书架，就发出雷鸣般的乐器声，连同书架一起，在空中呈圆形嗡嗡地升起来。因为伙夫打开门，所以从觉受中醒来。或许是供养的信物等太少的缘故吧。那个时候的觉受和梦境非常多，但是从来没有给别人说过。现在除了那些以外，都忘记了。在确隆（ཆོས་ལུང་）等地，因为类似破戒的缘故，流了很多鼻血，即使在呕吐的时候，白天的觉受和夜晚的梦境，也每天都有用不完的出现，持续了三个月左右。大多数时候，梦见一个有发髻的瑜伽士，和现在的根本上师噶（ཀ་）一样，形象是印度人，说是匝拉纳塔（ཛྭ་ལ་ནཱ་ཐ，梵文：ज्वलनथ，jvalananatha，光焰自在），师徒二人的梦境总是出现。他给我取名为达热纳塔（ཏཱ་ར་ནཱ་ཐ），许多女子敲击着手鼓，我也跳着舞。
English
It is said to be a pure land. There was a vision of mountains, rocks, forests, and flowing water all being the color of emerald. When studying Madhyamakavatara in Trashigang (བཀྲ་ཤིས་རྫོང་), I dreamed of meeting a pandita who said he was the teacher Chandrakirti, wearing the three dharma robes, his body made of fire. When holding the Uttaratantra, when about to attain Bodhi, I dreamed that I had become a Buddha, and my name was Immaculate Lotus Net Light. Thinking that I would emanate into various lands to benefit sentient beings, I emanated many emanations like myself, and looking at the palm of my hand, counting the spokes of the wheel, there were only eight hundred. Now the accumulation of serving and honoring the lama is not yet complete. Thinking of benefiting sentient beings with the body of a Buddha who is an emanation of a Bodhisattva, I woke up, and I don't remember any of the other signs related to the five treatises of Maitreya. When studying Pramanavarttika and Abhidharmakosha, there may have been no signs, or there may have been signs, but I don't remember them now, in any case, there were no signs. In Nyangto Taktshal Khar (ཉང་སྟོད་སྟག་ཚལ་མཁར་), in the root tantra transmission of Kyedor (ཀྱཻ་རྡོར), with the permission of Khen Rinpoche, I did a dark retreat of the six yogas, but because I didn't have diligence at that time, I didn't do the diligence Phowa, but in the experience of the union of emptiness and form, the scriptures that said it was the Kyedor Vajra tantra, together with the bookshelf and the evidence, were as high as the mountain peak behind Manlung (མན་ལུང་). As soon as I climbed that bookshelf, there was a sound of musical instruments like thunder, and together with the bookshelf, it rose buzzing in a circle in the sky. Because the cook opened the door, I woke up from the experience. Perhaps it was because the offerings of faith were too few. At that time, there were very many experiences and dreams, but I never told anyone. Now I have forgotten everything except those. In Cholung (ཆོས་ལུང་) and other places, because of something like breaking vows, I had a lot of nosebleeds, and even when vomiting, inexhaustible daytime experiences and nighttime dreams occurred every night for about three months. Most of the time, I dreamed of a yogi with matted hair, and the current root lama Ka (ཀ་), whose appearance was Indian, said to be Jvalanatha (ཛྭ་ལ་ནཱ་ཐ，梵文：ज्वलनथ，jvalananatha，光焰自在), the dreams of the master and disciple always appeared. He gave me the name Taranatha (ཏཱ་ར་ནཱ་ཐ), and many women were playing damaru drums, and I was dancing.
Chinese
阿热热热霍！阿地许提萨瓦达玛囊！阿若吽阿霍！吉玛许提达泽德列嘿！这样唱着歌。那时，医药、仪轨、缘起等等，没有一样没做，但一点用也没有。对六臂怙主等做了许多祈请和忏悔。梦中说修持胜乐金刚的续部有益，从开始修持后，到第四品时，鼻血不止的状况就停止了。在桑丁寺修持胜乐金刚时，虽然做了很多梦，但都被遗忘了。有一次，我的上师们，以及说是其他转世的上师，聚集了许多印度的班智达，拿着大约两百个昆德林，凿子、锤子等，在我身上敲打了很多下，说是胜乐金刚的塑像。不知从何时起，我的身体上生出了俱生母，青红色，光芒四射，大约一箭之长。心里什么也没想，只是愣住了。在拉萨的觉沃佛像前祈祷时，感到心间发出“突穷”的声音，一个芥菜籽大小的光团融入了心中。从那以后，心里就没有太多的烦恼了。那里也有很多阿杂惹。其中有一个叫帕匝瓦尔地的，是持外道见解的人，也在向觉沃佛像顶礼。他说也出现了一些加持的征兆。在雅砻（山南地区）地方，一个自称是布顿，具有加持力的人，给我戴上了一顶黄色的班智达帽，说：“现在就只戴这个。”因为这也是赋予意义的冠冕。所以现在戴黄色长帽的原因也在于此。在叶尔巴（拉萨市东北）的修行室查普，大约五次看到了空中显现的两面金刚瑜伽母。在达隆寺最初的时候，三次看到帕木竹巴大师的珍贵身像显现为上师的形象。后来经常见到，但只出现了一个普通的塑像，似乎是由于过于熟悉的原因。在唐巴钦波的灵塔扎西帕巴尔中，每当闭上眼睛，总能看到夏瓦里的身体似乎要说话，并且眼睛要睁开。此后，其他的显现也随之改变。在雅砻的约尔日冈住了三天。
English
Singing, "Ah re re re ho! Adi Shuddhi Sarva Dharmaṇāṃ! Āro Hūṃ Aho! Ki Ma Shuddhi Ta Je Te Le Hī!" At that time, there was nothing that wasn't done, such as medicine, rituals, auspicious connections, etc., but nothing helped. After doing many supplications and confessions to the Six-Armed Protector, etc., it was said in a dream that it would be beneficial to hold the Hevajra Tantra. After starting to hold it, by the time I reached the fourth chapter, the episode of nosebleeds stopped. While doing the retreat of Hevajra in Samding, although there were many dreams, they were forgotten. Once, my lamas, and those who were said to be lamas of other rebirths, gathered many Indian paṇḍitas, carrying about two hundred kundrils, chisels, hammers, etc., and struck my body many times, saying it was a statue of Hevajra. From who knows when, a coemergent mother, blue-red, radiant, about the length of an arrow, appeared on my body. I didn't think anything, I was just stunned. When I prayed in front of the Jowo statue in Lhasa, I felt a "tug chum" sound in my heart, and a mustard seed-sized ball of light dissolved into my heart. Since then, I haven't had much trouble in my mind. There were also many acharyas there. Among them, one called Pājjavarti, who held heretical views, was also prostrating to the Jowo statue. He said that some signs of blessing had also appeared. In Yarlung (Shannan area), someone claiming to be Buton, with the power of blessing, put a yellow paṇḍita hat on me, saying, "Now just wear this." Because it is also a crown that gives meaning. So the reason for wearing a long yellow hat now is also because of that. In the meditation room Chapuk in Yerpa (northeast of Lhasa), I saw the two-faced Vajrayogini appearing clearly in the sky about five times. In Taklung, at the beginning, I saw the precious statue of Lord Phagmo Drupa appearing as the lama three times. Later, I met him often, but only a common statue appeared, which seemed to be due to being too familiar. In the reliquary stupa of Thangpa Chenpo, Tashi Palbar, whenever I closed my eyes, I always saw the body of Shariputra seeming to speak and his eyes about to open. After that, many other appearances changed. I stayed for three days at Yolri Gong in Yarlung.
Chinese
向上师怙主猛烈祈祷后，大约三天的路程，汉地的土地和整个虚空都充满了成就者，每个成就者的背后都站着一个巨大的黑袍人，他们大多是黑衣护法的形象，他们都面带喜色，预言着各种各样的过去和未来。之后在桑丁寺继续冬学，同时进行咒语念诵等活动时，梦中出现一位名叫阿巴亚嘎绕的大学者，我向他请求了各种坛城的灌顶。之后在曲隆，向热仁波切多让巴请求道果时，在道灌顶期间的梦中，一位名叫桑树提吉地的大学者赐予了四大天王，以及度母日息夜怒，并非通常的度母，而是其他的度母的修法等等。醒来后也没有忘记。梦中出现了像在坛城中央亲眼见到本尊一样的体验。之后在桑丁寺的一个夏天，我开始学习根本律藏，在学习戒律时，更多地显现出圣者持律者巴拉达瓦扎金颜的形象，此外，还多次在梦中和体验中见到几乎所有十六罗汉的形象。在那之后的一年，我闭关了大约三个月的时间，在此期间，我猛烈地修习了六种瑜伽的支分和意念二者，结果出现了数不清的不确定之相，而且几乎出现了所有确定的十相。之后，在心中反复出现一个豌豆大小、颜色有六种颜色、非常稳定的埃വം（藏文：ཨེ་ཝཾ，梵文天城体：एवं，梵文罗马拟音：evam，汉语字面意思：如是）字。每当在任何显现之上学习善行时，就会出现清晰的相。还有，那时我向圣者不空绢索猛烈祈祷，结果和很多人一起登上了一艘大船，到达了普陀岛后，当我到达普陀山顶时，在一个中央高大宽敞的殿宇，里面有花园和沐浴池的地方，出现了一位自称是学师旃扎果米的印度年轻居士，他留着长发，左手拿着一株乌巴拉花，右手拿着一座顶端是莲花花瓣的城堡，背后背着一本经书。在那里，我请求观看或聆听如幻的景象，他回答说莲花花瓣就是伞盖。