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Forgive, Gotama, praised in the world, this transgression of mine. 38. Constantly distressed by coveting others' prosperity, Not delighting in the highest, nowhere finding fruit; I did not remember even once, father, to worship your lotus feet, Forgive, Gotama, ocean of virtues, this transgression of mine. 39. From existence to existence, again and again, for a long time, By body, by speech, and by mind, I have done immeasurable [evil]; Forgive, Gotama, remover of evil, the manifold evil, Grant me the auspicious, immutable, deathless state, free from existence. 40. In the forest, covered in darkness, full of repulsive corpses, In the impure womb of the mother, a dwelling of many worms; I lay in the thicket of existence, wandering without refuge, Be my refuge, Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 41. Having come out, again and again, fallen on this path of existence, Made into a hundred pieces by the surgeon's knife; I died in the thicket of existence, wandering without refuge, Be my refuge, Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 42. Fallen outside, tormented by the disease of lust, Unable to speak or even to know, deprived of mind; I died in the thicket of existence, wandering I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. If born happy, beloved by people, dear to kin, A child delighting in various games, seized by illness; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Even young, bound by household ties, with limited wealth, Suddenly seized by illness, separated from dear wife and children; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Believing the body to be ageless, dwelling in fresh youth, Crushed by old age, having not performed good deeds for the hereafter; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Believing the body to be healthy, permanent, free from illness, full of pride, Averse to wholesome intentions, utterly helpless, struck by illness; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Thinking one's own life immortal, permanent, free from harm, Thus puffed up with life's pride, having abandoned wholesome thoughts; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Delighting in harming others, stealing wealth, and other men's wives, Seized by the king, struck by many punishments and bonds; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Fallen into a hellish abyss, slipped from a mountain peak or tree top, Seized by wild beasts, bitten by venomous creatures; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. Angered by sorcery, seized by night-roaming spirits, By poison, by sudden attack, and other such things, stumbled; I died wandering in the thicket of existence, I am without refuge. Be a refuge, O Blessed One, for me to cross the ocean of existence. And when angry with my own people, devoid of wisdom, With sorrow and choking, much nectar-like speech I uttered amiss; I died, wandering in the thicket of existence, without refuge, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 52. Devoted to honoring my father, happy, beloved by my father, And by the death of my father, greatly immersed in sorrow; I wept for long, in the extremely unbearable suffering of the thicket of existence, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 53. Attending my own mother, supremely devoted to salutation, And by the death of my mother, remembering her great virtues; I wept for long, in the extremely unbearable suffering of the thicket of existence, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 54. Supremely honoring teachers and deities, pleasant-spoken, Having served their feet, extremely grieved by the death of teachers; I wept for long, in the extremely unbearable suffering of the thicket of existence, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 55. Having attained household life, with much wealth and joy, At the death of beloved wife, sons, and daughters, with immense sorrow; I wept for long, in the extremely unbearable suffering of the thicket of existence, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 56. At the death of beloved elders, siblings, and two sisters, And at the death of my own relatives, friends, and disciples, with immense sorrow; I wept for long, in the extremely unbearable suffering of the thicket of existence, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 57. From being seized by kings, from being robbed by enemies, From being carried away by river waters, from being burned by widespread blazing fire; I wept, deprived of wealth, for long in this thicket of suffering, Be my refuge, O Blessed One, for crossing the ocean of existence. 58. Having fallen into the extremely difficult, perilous, and confused thicket of existence, Having experienced such unbearable suffering for a long time, My heart, deceived by a speck of happiness, did not abandon the craving for existence, Remove that craving, O Ocean of Compassion, my entire craving. 59. From birth to death, and from death to birth, Indeed, from both, fear is certain for me in existence; And this very life, from birth to death, is devoid of peace. Give me peace, giver of deathlessness, O taintless Blessed One. 60. Even though long-trained, my mind, its craving unrestrained, tormented by delight in existence, alas, afflicted by strife! Therefore, Father, from fear, protect me; be my refuge, Blessed One, my ultimate refuge, the crossing of the ocean of existence.